Wednesday, April 20, 2011

on being sentimental.

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I'm a really sentimental person. Standing in my (nearly) empty room today (in my apartment) honestly made me want to cry. I had a really, really good school year and I'm genuinely sad to see it end. I can't believe my time in this apartment is already over. It literally feels like just weeks ago that I moved in.

I was packing up all my clothes and thinking about all the times I wore them this year (I wasn't kidding about being sentimental), and it almost scared me that time can move so quickly. I feel like this year went by in the blink of an eye -- even more so than previous years. I kept saying to myself, "This is the last time I will ___________ in this apartment" about EVERYTHING. I kid you not, I even thought to myself, "This is the last time I will turn this hall light off." College is such a weird time because I'm rarely stationary. Just as soon as I was really loving all the quirks of this apartment, it's time to leave it. I don't know, I guess most people probably feel like this when something special comes to a close. I will never live in this apartment with my three girlfriends again, and it just made me feel really sad. Of course I'm excited about all the things coming my way in the near future, but sometimes it feels really good just to savor all the last bits of something. Even though it makes me feel really sad, and I'm tempted to distract myself with things like going to get frozen yogurt or watching a movie, I think it's really important to let all these emotions sink in. It makes me feel so connected and human. Have a great night. xo, R.

*image found here, via here.


Laura said...

You really did have a wonderful year with three very sweet roommates and an awesome apartment! I can't believe how quickly it went by. It seems like just a couple of weeks ago that we were moving you in and helping you set up your room. I can't wait to see you. Love you.XXOO

Sarah said...

I can't believe this year is over, too! And I can't believe we pretty much wrote the same posts, haha. I guess great minds think alike...or we're both in need of a long break! ;)

Anonymous said...

I feel exactly the same way. It's going to be SO WEIRD next year..and we will have to visit! :) Since we will be right next door to each other practically. :) I was blessed to live with you this year. Love!

Laura said...

I am equally sentimental about things and often give in to bouts of nostalgia at random intervals. When I left college, however, I was strangely excited. I still miss my dorm room and the friends I lived with and all the college-y things that were only available to me on that particularly campus. I thought about my bike ride across campus, my last walk down my dorm hall, etc. but as I drove away, I was more happy then anything. College was something I completed with success and, though the times are gone, the memories I created will always be a source of joy and comfort to me. I allowed myself to relish in the sadness when it began to hit me, and I think that helped me move on with ease when the time to leave came. I guess what I'm trying to say is, it will be okay and I think your sentimentality is a great thing to have and share.

Roxanne said...

Laura - thank you for the kind words. I've always been sentimental about everything - I even get sentimental after short family vacations are over. Honestly, I'd be a little worried about myself if I weren't feeling sentimental! Plus, I still have a year left for my bachelor's, so it's not time for me to leave quite yet. :)